Gratitude

I have so much to be thankful for.

And honestly, expressing gratitude has been something I've struggled with. I tend to hold it in, and I recognize how thankful I am, but I don't express it for others to see how thankful I am.

Which kinda defeats the purpose, and doesn't help anyone but maybe myself.

So I decided that for the month of December, my goal is gonna be to express my gratitude as much as I can. Not so much my gratitude for material objects, but for the people I've met in the past 16 years. I've been so lucky to meet so many amazing people that have changed my life completely, and I'm realizing that I've never really told a lot of these people how big of an effect they've had on my life. And if I have told them, I haven't told them to what extent. I think that there's no time like the present, and in the spirit of the holidays and giving, I think December is very fitting. So we'll see how it goes.

Every week I've been trying to share a dance that either goes along with my post, or that I've been thinking about or that I like this week. This week's has nothing to do with being thankful, but I've been loving this song and this dance for quite some time, but especially today.

"I have learned that the more thankful I am, the more I have to be thankful for."

Transience

Transience. 

It seems like such a big word. but basically all it does is put the cliché "nothing lasts forever" into one word. Transience. There's this spoken word dance I've been thinking about a lot lately, called "Existential Bummer". The audio is from a video by a man named Jason Silva, and in it, he mentions the transience of nature, which leads into the discussion of the shortness of relationships, and life itself. 

Me, as a 16-year-old who has never dated anyone, tend to put the word "relationship" into the context of friends, and family, and other people of that sort instead of a romantic standpoint. I do that more often than not, and in this instance it really hit home to me that nothing lasts forever, no matter how hard we try. It's crazy to think that 4 years ago, I was friends with none of the people I'm friends with now. And I always thought those would be the friends I would have until I'm in the grave. It's shocking how quickly those things can change.

In the Existential Bummer dance, it questions what we should do. Do we give up on life and love completely, because "Hey! it won't last anyways!" Or do we love even harder and grow an even deeper relationship with the people we have and make the most of whatever time we have on this earth?


I'm siding with the latter.


This year, I've tried to turn myself into more of a "half glass full" kinda gal, and it's going great for me so far. I wanna see how far I can take it. I just want to inspire people and be happy. Lately, I've realized I'd rather be broke and happy than well off and stuck with the life I've picked. I have a feeling my future finances will not thank me for this mindset, but it will all be okay. It's fine. It always is fine. I hope you do the same, just dive in to everything you do with no regrets. Because in the end, everything has TRANSIENCE.

"Better an oops than a what if"